I'm a master of the game. Not one person I know plays it better. No one ever played it better. But now I've lost it. All of it. I thought I'd salvaged a little. I have nothing. There's nothing left.

I've been hung out to dry. What do I do to get back? Can I even get back anymore? I highly doubt it. I tried really hard in the beginning, and the game was soo easy. I felt like I was stealing from an orphan. Robbing a Cradle. I had this huge light that just wanted to show me the way.

Recently that light went to pass. I got stuck in this darkness that no light could mask. I started to read again. So that maybe the game would get easier, but it just makes it more complex. I go crazy in this darkness, it's like a maze that never leads me in the right path.

Going down the wrong path got me burned. A fire got ignited deep within in me and made my heart start to churn from a wind kissed burn. I wish I had been tossed into the scorching fires of hell than tickled by that sweet Auburn heat.

I embraced that heat at first. I didn't want to stay frozen. I let it's lips melt my icy layers and soon water began to drip on the floor. My layers gone, that heat starts to burn. What drips now is blood and the embers which fall to the ground leave me dazed.

My heart is charred and black, and the color it had is something I'll never get back. I lost at my game. I see now that the light which once guided me never went to pass but I left it turned to my back. I let the dark lose me. And now I'll never be me.